The Pillar of Autumn

Whoot! We had our first Choir concert of the year...duuuuuddeee that was sooooo awesome. First time my school's had a men's choir in forever and we rocked. Best choir concert the school's had in ages and I got to be in it. Word!

It actually DID get cold here and stayed cold for two days. Well..semi cold....like 21C or so. 70F.

OHhhh and apparently if my best friend's sister was flirting with me, it was "unintentional". She has the hotts for another guy, so dodged a bullet there.

Truth and Reconciliation

First and foremost, we're "supposed" to be getting the first cold front of the year sometime in the next 36 hours. Assuming Lewis Black isn't right and Meterologist doesn't mean "liar" in English, it should get down to a whopping 77 degrees here. That's 25 degrees for those of you stuck on Celcius. Those in the Northern lattitudes, enjoying temperatures far lower than that may laugh, but it's better than the 90F/33C we've been having. Click on the link in the title (IE: Just click on the title) to see what those of us down here think of such weather.

Anyway, I had a fender bender last week....really freaking pissed me off. It was raining and my breaks don't work in the rain (I have a 1968 Mustang with the old style breaks) too well so when I pushed on the break pedal for a stop light, they didn't work. I pushed again and only one side worked, sending me into a spin whereby I broad sided the car in the lane next to me. Thank God for superior steel and construction used in old cars...my fender and bumper are a bit bent. The truck I hit had it's front driver side fender and door completely trashed. Door didn't even fit in the frame properly anymore. No injuries fortuantly, but I got a ticket from *long string of racial and intellectual invectives* cop. Thou may call me a bigot myself, but how else do you explain her 1. Failure to understand the concept of "beyond anyone's ability to prevent due to nature of the equipment" 2. Issuing the ticket for "Failure to control speed" and 3. Fact that she was an old mexican woman and the person I hit was an old mexican woman.

Oh...and uh...social stuff yeah....I'm a wee bit freaked...cause for the past week, my best friend's sister has, I think...been flirting with me. And I've been flirting back without thinking about it. So yeah...I'm a wee bit freaked since this is the twin sister of my best friend, the one I had a crush on for like a year and a half....I'm not gonna do anything about it right now though.....

Blarg

Uggg...PMS sucks. THat would be the explanation my best friend gave...

Anyway, apparently she wasn't pissed at me, things are fine now, healing process begins. Thank you God for small favors....

Lord Help and Forgive Me

My God...this has been about the worst week of my life. I don't want to go into all the details, but basically I think I may have seriously hurt my best friend and driven her away from me. I don't know yet, because I haven't been able to talk to her all day, but my God I'm scared right now...if I've lost her, I don't know how I'm going to recover. I don't think I can take losing the most wonderful person in my life....especially not when I need them most.

Quintessence

I wrote a sonnet about my current love life..I think it's rather good.

Quintessence

We danced around each other for months, years,

Ever we flirted, never a couple,

Friend and then best friend, whispers in our ears;

We care, we love, we want, what’s the trouble?

You have all that I want, all that I need,

I give all you’ve not had, all that you want,

Yet still you refuse me, making me bleed,

My heart you have broken, my soul you daunt,

Emotion and gentleness, both have failed me,

Logic and reason are my last option,

I fear they will fail too, please hear my plea,

Let me love you, let us feel elation.

Breathlessly I await thine word a new,

Feverishly I pray, Dieu avec vous.

All the webs broken, all the tools fall broken from my hands. At the end, nothing works. - Marine General Kemal Scaragoglu